Hey everyone just thought I would check in and see how y'all are doing

For me, uni is winding down although the last assignment has dragged on and on due to a prolonged flu season here in Oz. For the past month I have had sick kids and sick me...it has been so dry that airborne viruses are having a good year infecting the population.

In the past couple of months, my perspective has shifted alot as well. I find it hard to talk about the paranormal like I used to because...well, it just isn't a big thing like it used to be - it is an everyday part of me and I don't feel driven to prove anything to anyone nor try to convince people of it's existence to influence their journeys. When I started this forum, I was angry. Angry at all the misconceptions and ignorance and fear. It sent me on a mission to try to change all that and help people feel safer. What I didn't realise at the time was that the reality of my purpose was to find those anchors in myself and not put the blame on the outside world for how I was feeling. My ego was having a party!! Forum after forum trying to stand out and gain attention and give people answers - MY answers. Now I know that I was not working from a place of love - how could I? I didn't have self-love at that point - I had anger and fear. I was in reactionary mode. Since then I have been on an incredible journey and found so much treasure inside myself, that I no longer feel a need to let my ego lead the way.

I am writing and I am listening to my intuition and I am moving forwards in joy and with love. The power of creativity is fully in my hands and I am sharing it with my children to give them the gift of expression. We all have a voice in this world, if only we can listen to what we have to say with an open mind and heart and then share it with others. Not to change them, but to expand ourselves. By doing so we grow in love.

Well, that is my rant. Wasn't meant to be so deep, but there ya go. You start typing and you never know what is gonna come out

I'm still here friends. Please don't worry in my absence because I am doing fine

Thanks so much for updating us on how you are doing, Goth! What a journey you're having, and you're making such amazing personal progress. I hope you and your kids are doing better from the flu as well... I'm home sick today myself.

What you said about being angry when you started the forums really interests me. Although anger is typically a negative emotion, I firmly believe that sometimes it can be channelled positively - it's the Mars drive for action - and your starting the forums is evidence of that. (When I felt angry over being jobless a couple of months ago, I was glad of that anger because I felt that it was propelling me forward to make necessary changes). You can be proud of what you've achieved with each forum, informing people and bringing us all together; I'm still incredibly grateful for those first readings you did for me almost a couple of years ago - I needed someone to confirm a few things for me, and it was one of the most important things to ever happen to me. It's all helped to lead me to where I am now, and to where I'm going in the future. So never underestimate the power of what you've done here... what you did as a result of the place you were in has been a blessing to all of us. Now that you're in a new, happier place, that too is inspiring and it's nice to know that you are doing well.

As for me, I'm in an interesting 'in-between' phase not knowing for certain what is ahead but that either way it will be good. I'm preparing for my admission to the MA thesis programme and I am actually using my sick day today to revise my research proposal and hopefully have my admission underway this week. I'm also learning how to NOT do more than I can handle; I've taken on a few too many things lately and I think this is partly why I got sick. I am loving full-time at the record store, but still doing 10 hours a week at my 2nd job is not enjoyable for me and it's leaving me very little time for myself; I am going to keep the job in anticipation of possibly needing it next year while I study, BUT should my scholarship application be successful, I will resign from my 2nd job asap. I realise it has not been serving my highest good for a long time now, and that I do need to let it go. I will be much, much happier when I have done so. I want next year to be MY year that I am doing for me and my happiness.